PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN... what a good movie... some laughs fun and the guys aren't even that bad! lol saw that tonight with Tania (my older sis), kate, colin, and jamie. i would definatly recommend it!!!

so yea.. all that aside? that last few days have been really hectic. thursday- calypso finals rehursal til 11 then stright to pan until after 12. friday- ruhursal for the queens finals show until after 12. saturday- job interview at 10am, down to the docks with uncle terry and cindy!!! that was fun fun fun in the sun! then stright to the finals where i see talib... i have no idea whats up with him but i think he likes this calypso singer chick ... SPARKLES...... argh i am envying her right now he still talks jokes and what i think is flirts with me. but i can't tell anymore... at all whats going on. but i wish it was with me. sunday- there was the caribbean day on main in markham went there til 3 then stright to the queens finals where again talib was flirting with me and everything and always around me until sparkles came. i don't know what to do? i truly know now that he has to be a player. but that isn't stopping this crush thing. i have to find someway to state my liking while not really showing him, or find out what he's about. is he feelin or not? i think when i talk to him next i will have to ask him how come he doesn't go out at night with his girlfriend or if maybe he does and he's just keeping this from me. and if he says he doesn have one then i'll ask about sparkles and ask why he doesn't ask her out? she seems nice and see what he says. if i get a 'there's no chance we are only friends' answer maybe i will find out if he is even looking for one or what the count is down in illonois. if i still get a negitory then i will have to ask what the possibilities are then of getting a booty call from him? that might work. see where i stand. Lavonne says i gotta feel this out cause i shouldn't be wasting my time and so does alex.. but i wonder how much of that is selfish? cause i think he wants to go out with me. but i guess that isn't really a woe.

Taylor went on away (hope she has fun) and i could have had her AMERICAN IDOL concert tickes.... but NO!!! im busy on wed. and i have been so busy that i hadn't even been able to call her mum. she had to call me! i feel so back!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH im horrible!

my York interview is tomorrow so i need to get some sleep. 3 hour interview then tania decided to book a tour for that day. so a whole day there! how fun huh! ahh well hopefully the practice tomorro night won't be too tiring!

Mood: aprehensive, and light hearted. a jovial mood even
Music: Trini 2 de Bone - David Rudder & Carl Jacobs
Random thought of the day: nothing can compare to a trini rising....I AM TRINI! and alex is not! TRINI REPERSENTIN! ah go lick down de res!